31st DEC

last day of 2009..

i bet everyone is going 2 farewell with u when the clock strike 12 ..

u're not alone..

BUT i'm all alone...

2molo, our new fren will come n visit us..

everything has 2 b new...

new hope, new dreams...

yeah..

NEW me...

wat so new about me...hmmmm ...

wanna study hard as AL coming soon ...

hv 2 be very clear about wat i 1 n wat i need...

quite bz next year...

exam, bro getting married, lots of relative oso getting married..

n i plan 2 work at my dad's fren's legal firm after AL...

jz 2 get some experiences..

wish me luck ppls...

hope good luck will goes to u all as new year comes 2molo...

everything goes on smoothly...

muacks!

AMEN!

-god is LOVE-

it's driving me crazy

kinda feel upset now...
i really duno wat happen 2 me....may b is because he's bz..?
hmmmmm..
something happen on 17th actually....
i bring my car 2 service in auto city perodua at 10am...
den tat morning...something wrong with my 013hp....it didnt ring or wat...
so i ASSUME tat no one call/msg me lur..
den after sending my fren back 2 his house, i saw 012hp gt 5 miss call,it's my fren veronica
so i called bak...she din answer.den she call back,i din answer..FINALLY,she call me n i answer.
she said:where r u???ur sister finding u ..call her back asap...den i was wondering...y my sis call her
in order 2 contact me ler??
den i call her by using 013..she scold:u know the whole world is finding u???y u din answer the phone??y u disappear for the whole morning??where u go..den i said after bring my car 2 service
i sent my fren back...she said:i duno...u call daddy..
so i called..daddy ask:y ur phone canot call???where u???den i said i duno y my phone cannot called in...it didnt rang since morning..i think smth wrong with my phone de...den he said..i duno..u call ur san gu..
so i called,san gu said:where u?bla bla bla....
i admit..at tat moment...i was very very pek chek...cause they seem 2 b suspicious for wat I'd said..
but when i reach penang bridge...msg from celcom...it's voice mail...i gt 2..
san gu's one:cindy ..where u go??v r all finding u...pls call me back asap....faster..
papa's one:cindy ar..call me..i'm finding u...
after tat...without realising...my tears drop down....i duno y...
twice?mommy very worry until cry?daddy bring one big stick n stand by in the car in case i really missing??my heart really very pain....cause i whn i reach home...sister said: u noe ar?i go all the way 2 auto city jz 2 find u?den papa oso go auto city from hometown?san gu oso go auto city perodua 2 search for u?i called 2 peroduaduno tat i'm tat important 2 them...but now i know...at least i'm still in their heart playing an important part...hmmm ...sorry jie jie,papa mama n san gu...and thanks u all for caring about me tat much...i love u all...

i'm once lost again

hmmmmm

i'm lost...

actually...

i duno wat m i doing now...no mood 2 study...

haiz......another secret is ***haiz...i duno it's right or wrong...

it's sin or not...

i don't know...

sometimes i jz 1 2 pretend as if nothing had happen...

sometimes i jz dun wanna think much n continue on..

but sometimes....something is stopping me 2 move on...

i'm really confuse....

may Father Lord guide me..

AMEN

...

i dunno y n how...

i'm down....fcking down now....

i'm scared tat my friendship with her is gonna gone....is gonna change...

i like 2 b fren with her...i like 2 tell her my things...dunno y...i'm jz fcking like dis bestie...

BUT recently.....i feel tat there's some changes between me n her...whenever she gave me the cold look ..the cold reply...really hurt me...a lot....

i hate tat feeling......i wan her back,...

n i duno y 2day everyone is so down......haiz...

thanks for Birret....care abt me..

he is really a nice guy and best fren...yea ..i like him..

hmmmm...i duno wat 2 do now

no mood 2 study....AL next year n Mock next week

y our college got endless exam,endless class one?

funny college.....n WEIRD ish..

MAY GOD BLESS ME

n SHOW ME THE PATH....

-Amen-