31st DEC

last day of 2009..

i bet everyone is going 2 farewell with u when the clock strike 12 ..

u're not alone..

BUT i'm all alone...

2molo, our new fren will come n visit us..

everything has 2 b new...

new hope, new dreams...

yeah..

NEW me...

wat so new about me...hmmmm ...

wanna study hard as AL coming soon ...

hv 2 be very clear about wat i 1 n wat i need...

quite bz next year...

exam, bro getting married, lots of relative oso getting married..

n i plan 2 work at my dad's fren's legal firm after AL...

jz 2 get some experiences..

wish me luck ppls...

hope good luck will goes to u all as new year comes 2molo...

everything goes on smoothly...

muacks!

AMEN!

-god is LOVE-

it's driving me crazy

kinda feel upset now...
i really duno wat happen 2 me....may b is because he's bz..?
hmmmmm..
something happen on 17th actually....
i bring my car 2 service in auto city perodua at 10am...
den tat morning...something wrong with my 013hp....it didnt ring or wat...
so i ASSUME tat no one call/msg me lur..
den after sending my fren back 2 his house, i saw 012hp gt 5 miss call,it's my fren veronica
so i called bak...she din answer.den she call back,i din answer..FINALLY,she call me n i answer.
she said:where r u???ur sister finding u ..call her back asap...den i was wondering...y my sis call her
in order 2 contact me ler??
den i call her by using 013..she scold:u know the whole world is finding u???y u din answer the phone??y u disappear for the whole morning??where u go..den i said after bring my car 2 service
i sent my fren back...she said:i duno...u call daddy..
so i called..daddy ask:y ur phone canot call???where u???den i said i duno y my phone cannot called in...it didnt rang since morning..i think smth wrong with my phone de...den he said..i duno..u call ur san gu..
so i called,san gu said:where u?bla bla bla....
i admit..at tat moment...i was very very pek chek...cause they seem 2 b suspicious for wat I'd said..
but when i reach penang bridge...msg from celcom...it's voice mail...i gt 2..
san gu's one:cindy ..where u go??v r all finding u...pls call me back asap....faster..
papa's one:cindy ar..call me..i'm finding u...
after tat...without realising...my tears drop down....i duno y...
twice?mommy very worry until cry?daddy bring one big stick n stand by in the car in case i really missing??my heart really very pain....cause i whn i reach home...sister said: u noe ar?i go all the way 2 auto city jz 2 find u?den papa oso go auto city from hometown?san gu oso go auto city perodua 2 search for u?i called 2 peroduaduno tat i'm tat important 2 them...but now i know...at least i'm still in their heart playing an important part...hmmm ...sorry jie jie,papa mama n san gu...and thanks u all for caring about me tat much...i love u all...

i'm once lost again

hmmmmm

i'm lost...

actually...

i duno wat m i doing now...no mood 2 study...

haiz......another secret is ***haiz...i duno it's right or wrong...

it's sin or not...

i don't know...

sometimes i jz 1 2 pretend as if nothing had happen...

sometimes i jz dun wanna think much n continue on..

but sometimes....something is stopping me 2 move on...

i'm really confuse....

may Father Lord guide me..

AMEN

...

i dunno y n how...

i'm down....fcking down now....

i'm scared tat my friendship with her is gonna gone....is gonna change...

i like 2 b fren with her...i like 2 tell her my things...dunno y...i'm jz fcking like dis bestie...

BUT recently.....i feel tat there's some changes between me n her...whenever she gave me the cold look ..the cold reply...really hurt me...a lot....

i hate tat feeling......i wan her back,...

n i duno y 2day everyone is so down......haiz...

thanks for Birret....care abt me..

he is really a nice guy and best fren...yea ..i like him..

hmmmm...i duno wat 2 do now

no mood 2 study....AL next year n Mock next week

y our college got endless exam,endless class one?

funny college.....n WEIRD ish..

MAY GOD BLESS ME

n SHOW ME THE PATH....

-Amen-

happy

haha...

i siao de ..lols..spent money can really make me happy ler...

i spent again....haiz...kek sim at the same time happysiao eh..

haiz....another happy thing is received my Ex msg..n guess wat?i was very cool 2 him..and it makes him shock!

heh....nw is the time 2 take revenge and get bak everything i lost...

so ..better watch out!

hmmmm....jz nw went 2 eat wan tan mee...and now...my stomach nt feeling well ler.....

keep on lao sai...

ish...kang kao nia...

haiz.....

cindy ng is confusing abt something.......wondering and guessing....and thinking....

hope for a better 2molo.

good nite ppls.

muacks:)

AMEN

home sweet home

guess wat...

i'm now imagining abt my future home....

my house will b fill in with ikea furniture...

design by my own...

paint the paint tat i like....

hav roughly abt 7-8 rooms in a house..

a double storey may b?

rooms for:(1)me n hubby

(2)my kids 2gals n 2boys

(1)my parents

(1)my hubby's parents

(1)my siblings

(1)hubby's siblings

(1)my maid

yea...tat's enough....n i wan a mini little garden....

omg.......i wan England style..with lace....lols....

promises tat i make 2 myself.....open up my own legal firm in at least 10 years time..

earn my own income, get my own car, own house...tat's right

women cant always depend on their hubby...they mz hv their own money..

1.wont get bullied

2.feel great cause spend ur own money

tat's right.......tat's right....

it's time for me 2 dream all dis...lols...good nite...

p/s:everything i mention above, i really meant it.wish me luck!:)

AMEN

dizzy day

bestie....i luv her!!!tis is wat v call....TRUE FRIEND

dis is cindy ng....my eyes isnt tat big lar....wear contact lens eh....and....was quite quite sick today....since yesterday...feel like vomiting and dizzy...and Dr.Hwong said may b is food poisoning...but i don't think so...:)

lols......handsome nia.....chuah min xiang....

my medicine...it's homoeopathy...they said healthier..haha

wow...yeng right???damn yeng right??very cool right????(mcd happy meal)

BUT....see....he oso needed baby bib...hahah!!my work

cindy ng again...lecturer bla bla bla in front..i chiak chiak chiak behind...good student ever!

happy meal for every morning breakfast...another factor of growing fat..

my bestie is sick too....flu~~

few weeks ago....at duno wat shop....eat indian food...erm..i dun like tat shop..

daddy!!!best daddy in the world!!!!at nando ..yesterday nite!happily eating...

dad...u're aging...i noe...i luv u!muacks!!

another bestie...secondary one!!Lim Cheah Ann....UPSR,PMR,SPM straight As...BUT cant get JPA...wth...

tat's all for 2day..haha...2molo hv 2 wake up earlier ler...cause hv 2 accompany sis n baby go check up....good nite ppls....

daily quotation: take a few minutes in ur daily life 2 recall back what u'd done ..hv u done smth bad 2 ur parents?hv 2 hate somebody for wrong reason?? life is nt a bed of roses...no one is perfect...but at least try 2 b perfect!

AMEN

VAIN~again

who says only U can act cute?????

hair dryer advertisement kah???lols

jesmine jie jie n me.....at sakae sushi

sukda jie jie....hahahaha!!cute ler

while doing my revision listen 2 dis song.....remind me of my childhood.....thx..papa n mama

i do miss u both when i'm in pg.........I MISS U!!

love myself!!always do!!!

the snack...lalalala.....(reason of gaining fat)

the thingy tat causes me 'leakage' during the classs...

v love EDELYNN!!!!forever n ever..

n finally...thx for viewing my blog.....haha...muacks>.<

good nite ppls.....

daily quotation:love urself, be urself, be satisfy with wat u hv, do appreciate every precious moment in ur life....

AMEN

another random Sunday:)

halo ppls...

Sunday again...

haiz...

time flies without realise

erm...i think 2day will b the last random Sunday ler...

haha..

cause 2molo is CIE As exam.....

so i'm in the house 2 do some revision....

oh yea~MOCK exam result came out de!

i get total 60/100..

actually happy larr...but nt so satisfy lerr...

but brother remind me tat i told him earlier tat i only need a "pass"...

but nw is more den a "pass"...

so...since i need more den a "pass"...no..is at least a "B"..so i need 2 work even harder for 2molo's exam...

wish me luck ppls!!

i can!!!yesh~!!!confident!!yea come bak de....!!all had came bak!!(relax,confident,courage)yeah!!GOD BLESS..

AMEN

*p/s:jesmine..give me 2 days time..i'll upload our pic....:)

Random sunday:)

sunday.......sunday.....sunday.......
it's been a long time tat i'm free on sunday...
Sunday usually will b my family day....
but since my exam is jz like 2 days after today...(no matter it's death or live...i'll still face it)
so i decided nt 2 go back 2 my home town....:)
i'm alone in the house....
after mopping the house, cleaning my room....
i decided 2 sit down n write dis stupid thingy....
erm...yea....yesterday was lantern festival right...
but ....i did nt celebrate it....
i can still recall tat.....
when i was small......my dad used 2 make lantern for me....
RABBIT lantern....tat's my favourite one.....
but...unfortunately.....i'm still not a camera freak tat time...
so didnt take down any pic...
haiz..wat a waste....
NOW....no more lantern....no more celebration....no more rabbit....no more candle...
as i grown up....everything seems change a lot.....
i need 2 b very very independent...no one borrow me their shoulder....
the childhood will never come back again.....
i MISS....MISS those time.....
everyone now is busy with their stuff.......accompanying their gf/bf...
i need 2 make my own decision...
even if the decision is wrong...i hv 2 take it...happy or not....i have 2 face it...
no more parents by my side.....
no more sibling sending me 2 school....
i'm jealous with my course mate that their parents is still sending them 2 college....
no more shopping with my brother....
no more hanging out with my sister....
MY LIFE...is like.....360 degree change.......
NEVER MIND....I'm Cindy NG....
so i can face everything and anything..
i'm strong tat no one can make me fell...
NEVER NEVER NEVER...
may Father Lord bless my family...
my parents...my grandpa...my bro...my sis....everyone who is reading my blog....
AMEN..

DEATH

hw do u think about death??
u noe........as i'm on my way coming bak to penang from perak......
ALONG the road.......i suddenly think like a kid,where'll a person go after they died?
how is their live in another world??
before this, I take death as a normal thingy.....never think too much...only knew tat a person will end up in the heaven if they done something good..
but now......i'm scared of the word"death".....i'm scared if one of my family member tell me about how if they leave my some day....i'm scared......very very very scared.....
i couldn't stop my tear...as i'm thinking this..really...i cried for about 20 minutes...non-stop....
i leave my home town, and got on the car, n my tears came out....u noe....every time i leave, i wont be crying...but y.....i've now become a very very weak person....i dont want myself to be like tat......
EXAM is coming soon....yet i dont think i've finish study my thingy......i think i'm stress enough....so i become so weak recently......
DEAR LORD.......
I WAN TO BE TOUGH,tat's the trademark of mine.....
nobody can stop me from doing something i wan to do..
nobody can c my tears ..
allow me only cry in the middle of the night....
while there's only U n me....alone..
FATHER LORD, do bless me in my coming exam...all i'll do is DO MY BEST....tat's what i can do...
i noe i can...
YES!CINDY NG ,U CAN!!
REMEMBER, MY DREAM:open up a legal firm in 10 years time...
papa n mama......wait for me....for GOD sake...u both hv 2 come over 2 my firm n may b become my assistance??lols.....

SERIOUSLY...i wan u both u c my success...n SHARE my happiness.....
AMEN
*sorry guys...no mood to write more...*

tired day.......but enjoy...:)

was absent to class on monday...lols...cause lazy...n wanna buy something marr...so ma absent lur....went QB...after tat...went bak home n study...........it makes my feel tired...lolsss

For my daughter lar...who else...

For my ex teacher's daughter....lolss

For cousin's baby boy....haha

For my baby girl...:)

reason of growing fat........SUPPER!!lols.....

After revision....canot tahan de...too tired...den put mask ..den sleep...lolssss
exam jz around the corner...GOD bless arrr.....
night~

Hiccup day..:(

lols....i called it hiccup day cause i keep on hiccup-ing for the whole day.....it's irritating ....shitzzz

ok...lemme tell u my story nw.LOL...
Morning- after wake up, take bath, check mail n ready 2 go out for movie......BUT......i CANT find my house key~!!!wtf.....sis n bro in law both go 2 work de.....n my key is with sis.........
den i call sis....
she said:try 2 find around the house.......(although v both noe there's no more key in the house)..so definitely cant find anything....so.....when i decided nt 2 go out n sleep for the whole day....sis called: i come bak now......(she's in BW)...so gam dong....lols.......
Afternoon- go for movie"where gt ghost".....erm....i was late....for abt 20 minutes...so i missed the front part......haiz.....because of the ppls larrr..shitssss....buy ticket oso wan 2 use credit card.(damn slow...den the credit card canot use sumore)..stupid.....the movie was nt really funny larrr....it's ok ok only...quite disappointed.......i prefer the front part... i dun like "house gt ghost"...tat's totally sucksss.....after movie ...walk around 2 c whether can find papa's b'day present anot....unfortunately ...cant find.....
i spend my Friday jz like tat....2molo promised amy tat will go 2 library n study......hopefully can get smth into my brain larr....LOL.....wish me Luck~:)
Now-listening to "ai wo bie zou"^^
-the end-
*yea i noe.......fatter nw.......*

life is nt a bed of roses:)

*finger cross*
in the name of Father, name of the Son, name of the Holy Spirit,Amen.
pray to the Father Lord tat everything will be alright......
the sun will come out after the rain....no matter is a small rain or a heavy stormy rain....
Hope Father Lord will grant us with blessing, SAFETY-ness and few others things...
All i hope n pray is my parents will be alright n live in a safety environment whenever their children(me n siblings) are all bz with their stuff and cant stay by their side to accompany them....
Father Lord...
pls grant us with PROTECTION ...to ur children....especially my family members..my parents..they are my life.....my soul...my everything...no one else can replace them in my heart,except for u ...my Lord....
it was a narrow escape..i noe...all i need to do is thanks Lord...thanks Lord for the blessing...thanks Lord for the protection,thanks Lord for everything....I noe i might jz too greedy...I NEED MORE PROTECTION FROM U, FATHER LORD.FOR MY FAMILY....
and for now....i m mood less....in everything.....but pls...dun let the trouble trouble me..
cause "trouble is a friend"
i'll win this war,i WAN to win dis WAR~as i noe..my exam is coming soon..
live or death is on my own hand.
.study tat's all wat i can do.

AMEN

Merdeka!!:)

c...i keep my promise(update my blog)....hehee..
i'm a good Malaysian...so do my family...LOLS....so v celebrate HARI MERKEKA!!
went for dim sum AGAIN dis morning...with papa,mama,gege,bro-in-law,papa's fren n me!!meet keat yong there(jz right beside our table)...LOLS.......hahahah...
after tat..went to Northam Hotel to hv our buffet lunch~the reason tat went to northam hotel because v last minute only decide...n almost all the nice one is fully book!!!damn!!rasa sayang, g-hotel,E&O hotel, evergreen hotel,traders hotel.....ALL FULLY BOOK!!wth~
frankly speaking...the buffet in NH is ....erm....so so nia...n nt much of variety.....haiz...the 6 table occupied by Ng's family..LOLs......

the decoration....the only thingy i like..LOLS

the baby's grandaunty=my aunty..LOLS..........

the ........LOLs.......

my mama n baby's mama n baby..LOLSss

the BUN!!

the cake~~

the granny n grandchild...LOLS...happpy family:)

baby's aunty...haha...CINDY

the fish n the water n the plant n the light........=.=

the cousinnnnnnnn

the tempura

the ppls.........(my papa's family n his sister's family)
15 of us..include the BABY:)

the papa..LOLSss............the blue colour shirt one..................:)
*hugs.u.all*
w/ love!~muackssssssss